Things have been a little all over the place lately, but that's life XD
I had a really rough Autumn so that's why I haven't really posted all that much. It's been a year since my grandfather passed away and I've had some interpersonal issues
that don't belong online XP Boundaries and what not X3
Kally finally uploaded "The Ending has already happened"!! And now that it's out I can finally talk about it!! X3
Which makes me ridicously happy, because in the student film she made that she let me watch (even though we didn't live in the same area at the time so I owe her XD) this
was one of my favorite parts!!
The costuming for her witch character is gorgeous!! If I could eat the colors and lighting that was used in it I would!! XD Not to mention *AS ALWAYS* Kally's voice in this
was so aetherial and lovely!! Mixed with the incredible sound design and electric yet haunting tune I just- ashsfhshdfhshdfhdbf!! This work is wonderful and everyone who was apart
of it should be incredibly proud of themselves!! I can't wait to see what she goes on to make in the future!!
Also the outfit they chose for "Man" reminds me a lot of Jay from Marble Hornets and that just makes me happy XD
If you haven't already you should really go follow her!! She works really hard on the things she makes and the finished work shows!!
I've taken a step back on posting my weightloss diaries, because for a bit I got more focused on recording what I was doing rather than paying attention for me XD
My goal is to upload one every 2-3 months, which we're heading up on XD Too be honest I haven't looked at a scale in a hot minute, I've been a little afraid to, because I
started doing some things that I had only done when I was in the midst of an eating disorder XP So I've been trying to find my healthy balance for weight loss that doesn't lead me to
either bingeing and purging or out right starving myself all together XP I'm doing a lot better now so I think I'm good to get back to it X3
I plan to make another christmas card with my fiance this year. We're thinking of Ghostface Santa pictures XD
We've been doing a lot better lately X3 He'd been hiding some stuff from me and has been slowing earning back my trust :3
We're getting back on track to be were we were ^w^ People make mistakes, that's what makes us human at the end of the day
I just wish he would've told me sooner, but things have been even better than before now that we've talked it out
He let's me in and we share just about everything now XD We've become one of those couples who even share locations, which being real, I never thought I'd be one of those people XP
But it's really nice getting to see that he's made it to work or home safe X3 Also the app we use let's you have a pet that you can both take care of and it's so cute I could die T~T
I've been getting into junk journaling lately and if I make some spreads that I like enough I might start sharing them ^^
It's been so cold out lately where I am I just wanna stay in bed and work on crafts XD
I watched a video not too long ago from Julyssa Rose called "The Art of the Tea Tray" and that's only added to the
internal struggle of getting out of bed XD My brain goes, "Why would I leave? I have snacks and crafts and warm tea. And the warmth of the tea pot on my tea tray is like a heating pad
Why would I ever get out of bed??" But I do XD I get out of bed, go into the real world and work so I can have cute dates with my fiance and also more snacks and books for my tea tray XD
Speaking of dates!! I just had the cutest double date on the 7th!! My fiance and I went out with a coworker and his boyfriend!! It was so nice!!
It's been a while since I've gone out with friends XD So unhermiting myself felt nice for a change XD Made me feel like more of a person X3
I'm hoping to post some stuff on youtube in these winter months, but like I said on my community post I'm not too sure if I'll get to post everything I want to X3
I've already started on a couple of videos I'm hoping to post!! I'm really hoping to get my creative spirit back, because lately living itself has felt like a chore ^^'
And I know thinking like that only makes it worse, but it's hard to fix something if can't admit that there's a problem to begin with XD
Like I know life's worth living and people around me would be sad if I suddenly disappeared, but sometimes it's just really hard to even do the things I like to do XP
But I'm gonna push through it and get some stuff out X3 I'll have fun doing it and once I get started hopefully it'll give me some motivation to continue X3
I think a lot of my lower energy and mood things are a combination of my thyroid being not where it should be and my adhd kicking my butt XP
But I'm working on that though I've got a thyroid medication I've been taking and I do feel a bit better, I function a bit more like a person XD
As for the ADHD I've been reading a book to try to help with it, because growing up figuring out different medications to help me with that was a nightmare XP
I just never want to deal with that again, but if it comes to it I'll talk to someone about medication.
I already know doing that will be a nightmare though, because my mom in the soon to be vintage year of 2008 gave the only copy of the paper saying I had adhd to the school
Soooo either I'll need to see if they would still have a copy (Doubtful, I've been out of school going on 6 years), see if the therapists office would still have a copy
(Even more doubtful because I got diagnosed 17 years ago ^^' and my state only mandates medical records are held onto for about 10 give or take), see if any doctor's office
I've been to would have it in my medical records (Maybe??? No clue... I've been thinking about calling to see if I can find anything out), or (the one I dread the most) setting up an
appointment to get rediagnosed... LITERAL NIGHTMARES T~T Like how expensive and time wasting for something they've known I've had since I was 7 ^^'
Tangent aside though XD I know things are gonna get better even if they don't feel like it now XP
I just have to hold out and keep doing the things I love to do even if my body doesn't want to move >w<
I've already started recording myself playing through Hatoful Boyfriend: Holiday Star!! It's such a cute game!! I've only played through it once and that was all the way back in 2022,
so I'd already forgotten most of what happened in it XP
While I was writing this I found out RefSheet is going down so I really need to go to finishing my character pages so I don't lose all of the stuff I've written so far XP
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